The fear of public speaking
I don’t like public speaking.
Not many people do. Once you find someone who does, it’s like a diamond in the rough. They are so rare, so special.
Generally, people who enjoy speaking, and speaking to a crowd are the people you see up on stage. People who seem to shine just a little bit brighter then the rest of us.
At least in my opinion, those people are special.
I’d like to get over my fear of public speaking, but it’s honestly a lot harder then it sounds. Would you rather speak in front of 30 people you know really well, or 100 people you don’t know at all?
It’s a hard question to answer. I’m just not sure why exactly I’m so afraid of talking in front of others, why my voice shakes when I am given a little bit of attention.
I’d like to think I don’t care about other people’s opinions, but I do. I’d even go as far to say that I care more about how people hear me, than I care about how I really look.
No one wants to embarrass themselves in front of a crowd of people. Those who do, I believe we call “comedians.”
Of course people will think negatively about you, or at some point in your life someone will think lowly of you. But that’s my worst fear. I’ve always wanted to impress everyone; I’ve always wanted to make everyone happy.
That goal is next to impossible, I know, but I think it’s a good start.
I’m bound to mess up in front of a crowd of people. I’ve definitely seen others embarrass themselves unintentionally on a stage. But it’s never occurred to me that that just makes me like them more.
Making mistakes is so utterly human, I can’t begin to express how much I appreciate seeing someone mess up sometimes.
Maybe it’s twisted, but it makes me relax in the weirdest way.
Sometimes people are too harsh, or too critical, but those are the people who forget that everyone messes up sometime in their life. If it just happens to be up on a stage in front of a crowd of a hundred people, so be it.
So maybe I’ll get over not being able to speak in front of others later in life. Right now I’m trying to get over my fear of talking to people over the phone.
Then I have to work on being able to say “no” to people.